The text of a talk given at Parklands by Eugene Halliday, 24th June 1984. Ishval Audio 93.

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Right, subject matter “Freedom.” Shortly we have to say freedom is not total lack of constraint so that energy can operate anywhere regardless of circumstance. Freedom is not total lack of respect. Now we will be doing a drawing to illustrate this, ignoring the dark smoke there. Imagine a field of light, Infinite light, nothing but Infinite light. That Infinite light is the light of the Absolute and is consciousness itself without an object. Now you all know what it is like to gaze into a very powerful light, how it causes halations in the retina so that you cannot see anything through the excess of light; so that creation of forms which are going to be visible, presupposes a shut down of the amount of light. So that creation is a reduction of Infinite Consciousness into a state of finitude. Let the light on the screen represent Infinite Light, no object there to look at, it is a pure consciousness objectless, limitless in every way. Now that pure consciousness is the God-head, the source of the God. Most people think that God, as Creator, is the highest, no but, God as Creator is a step down from the Infinite Godhead, the Infinite light of consciousness. Now, in order to produce an object, this light must focus. Now I want to represent the focus. Focus means fo-cus- force-striking.

Now imagine the Infinite Light, extended spherically in all directions, imagine that it has a power, because it is sentient, to look inwards to itself. I am going to put a little dot there to represent the focal point, that is the initial condensation, I nearly said condemnation, which would have been correct any way. It is a condemning. Now this in the Hebrew would be represented as the letter yud י which is written like that. It is the famous English word jot or dot. It is the contraction, the contra-action of the Infinite Field of consciousness. It gives itself thereby, a reference centre, and without this reference centre there would be no individuated consciousness of the kind that we call individual human awareness. When we put that dot in the middle of the screen there we are to think it represents an in – tention, an inner tension, psychologically, an intention to have a centre. And there is no centre unless there is an intention to have a centre. The wandering mind, without a centre, has no proper intention, it is vague, chaotic, meandering and only if there is inserted into it, or introjected, thrown into it, a particular finite centre can there be an individuated being.

Now when that being is thrown down there, that is a jot, of which Rabbi Jesus says, “Not one jot,” not one single yud or tittle, a little critical mark, not one of those shall pass away until all the logic of existence shall be fulfilled. All form presupposes a positing of a point of reference. Now, when the point of reference is posited, there is a collapsing onto that point of Infinite Consciousness, so that point is the equivalent to what the astronomers call a Black Hole. You have got a red hole in this case because the black pen would not work, and as red symbolises energy, it is quite correct to use it. It is a focal point of energy, en erg y means ‘in work affirming. It has gone into centre to work on itself. Now, when it contracts in that way, it makes this focal point which is the very initial beginning of individuation. All individuation is form and all form is punctilious, all form is individual. It depends on contraction of power to make that form. There is our first form.

Now if it stopped at that level, there would simply be a tension in the middle of the Infinite Light and that tension would be simply one point. Whereupon, when we write the name of God we would write a yud to symbolise that point and immediately we write that point, we would see that the space around it is not identical, formally, with the point. Can we see that? The moment we posit the point, relatively the space around it has now become empty. We have filled it with the point of intention. Our life is nothing but intention we internally posit in our field of awareness. So around this point, there is a field. I won’t put it t



here I will put it here. This is a Hebrew letter , ה which means

‘field of life’, the life itself. When you say “Lachaim,” to life, a toast, you are saying let there be a field of inter-est, a field of interest around this point. And, instead of using that square letter I am simply going to draw a circle round that point. I want you see that circle could have been drawn further up, further up, further up, to infinity. The Field is Infinite but the intention zone is finite.

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Now the intention zone is an idea. Idea is Greek for form, id - it, ea - life action. Let us write that word, I, that is the point in which we draw the line and put the dot on top to locate it, id is the same as the word ‘it’, three-fold life, think, feel, will activated. The word ‘idea’ presupposes a formal intent to create diversity in the life-field-activity.

Yud hé vav hé

י ה ו ה

Now, we don’t normally spread our consciousness out to infinity because if we do so, we lose formal consciousness, so we tend to zone, to make a Z O N E. That means ‘zealous unity.’ Where the point of focus, we centre and we are aware that round the focus there is a zone of less focus, the dot as field, that is the second letter of this name. We can transliterate this and read it that way, yah, that is the contacted form of Jehovah. Hé, ה means spirit, Hija, that is the same as the ‘hai’ in lachaim. Life, yah is an affirmation zone in which an idea is emotively charged, deliberately to create focal individuated consciousness. So, it is said the Absolute posits the yud, or figurately it has sent down the yud from infinity into finity and then, coming from infinity, He hits the yud and it goes out to a certain distance and then it comes back again like that. Now it goes to a certain distance because if it does not go to as-certain, that means ‘hard held distance’ it would go to infinity in which case, the energy would disperse itself absolutely and again, there would be no object of consciousness, no Universe, no Cosmos, no World, no individual beings. So the intention to make a thing would produce static form. And then the Absolute energy presses through the static form, goes out a certain, that is a hard held, distance; back again and pressing into the yud shoots out of the yud, like that, so the yud shot out, becomes a ו like that, and the moving power coming out of the first yud there, by the movement of the egression, rotates. So I am going to put a little spin round there. That is a vortical spin produced by a moving form. If you blow air, like this, into air, the air into which you blow it, spins. Round the column of air that you blow, a field has occurs and because a field occurred we must write again, another hé. You now have the Yud a a Vav a , and that is the word, translated in English, Jehovah.



his spinning out force now dynamises the whole process, so that we have a being with an idea, yud one, and now draw it vertically, yud one, a field round the idea, pushing through the yud, the yud becomes a vav a driving power which develops a field round itself, like that and pushes down until it meets an ultimate resistance called matter. When we write this word, ‘dreadfully’, it is simply the drawing of primal Cosmic Man, that is Adam Kadman, primal man. Original Man, is a being with an idea, a feeling of that idea, a drive from centre, from heart, and a field around the drive. Can you see that it is quite different in feeling experience to have an idea and feel the idea is an interesting idea, and just have it in your mind as an idea? And then there is, “I think I will put this idea into practice.” So you hold the idea in your mind, and then you push the idea so that little dot is elongated, yud becomes vav. The idea has now become a driving force and the driving force has made a vortex around it while it is going along and this is the origin of time. Time is nothing but driving forces pushing through Infinite space.

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Fresh start. We are now going to consider freedom. Now the ‘free’ part means…, and the F was originally a drawing of the phallus but that does not mean the male physical organ, it means the power of consciousness directed towards an object in a playful manner. Pha lus means intelligent play, it is not penile. The word ‘penis’ and penalty’ and punishment are all related together, but ‘phallus’ is intelligent. Penis is not. When we see that we see a force which is to become operative. Turn the letter round like this and it is a squared off drawing of an Egyptian letter like that, but it does not refer to the physical organ of a male human being or animal, it refers to intelligence, pha, related to phenomena, means ‘light’ phar means pi-law, intelligent ratio, plus ‘lus’ which means ‘free play.’ Phallus means ‘free, intelligent, relational interplay, but intelligent, not stupid.

Let us look at that very carefully. When the dot is posited, it is a contraction of the Infinite. There are no finites that are not absolute intentions to be. The value of the human individual as individual is precisely this, that infinity is supporting, is introjecting, its own representative in the individual centre of consciousness. That is the developed human intelligence is a god, that is a precipitate of Infinite Intelligent Power.

Now, if that were to remain only there and nothing else, there would be no relation, so, as we have seen, the Infinite comes, presses through that and goes to a certain limit, that is representative of the serpent with tail in mouth, the periphery, as far as you will to focus. Later on, that will evolve in the animal world and the human world and that dot will be the pupil power, pi-law, the learner of experience and the rest of it will be the ball of the eye. So that is the first drawing of an eye, and the waves of infinity are going like this, making the lid, the constraining forces, a wave passes from Infinity that way and this way producing a stabilisation by opposition of Intelligent Sentient Power.

Now, the space between the dot and the periphery, that space, is a zone of action possibility. The dot itself, when contracted down, does not move. It is a centre of reference. The periphery is the limiting factor that stops you expanding to infinity and so avoids you losing your individuality.

Eugene how do you focus, how does that Alpha, the outer circle, that zone, how is that arrived at from the idea, how does it get its distance from its focus?

How does a point get its distance and focus? The whole process is in Infinite consciousness and the Infinite looking into itself, in the act of in-looking, posits the point of reference for itself. Simply inter-est in self creates that point of reference, Now look at the space in between, and when we think, if I move my arm like this through space, we tend to think the space is empty or void, but it is not. The space is power attenuated, held to avoid it condensing the whole of infinity upon that point. If the whole of infinity goes onto that point, that would be an intense gravitational centre far worse than any Black Hole imagined by the astronomers. All reality would condense onto that point and be totally immobilised. So the attention, the tension that generated it is relaxed and returned but as we said, returned not to infinity but to a finite limit and is then turned back again on the centre in a re-flexive act, reflexive bending back.

Now our awareness that we exist as individual human beings is there only when we reflect and we bend back consciousness. If we become aware of the external object and forget our own being, we get lost in the object. But if we return the consciousness to the consciousness then we don’t get lost, we retain individuation because we posit that individuation by in-tent to know the Self.

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Now, we can repeat this diagram all the way round, so we can go like this and it would go continuously, changing its axis like the precession of the equinoxes and there would be a continuous generation of a point at centre and a continuous maintenance of a periphery and a continuous traversing from centre to periphery of the intent to be and to be aware and to be actual. So the zone between the point and the periphery we call the action zone. If you would like me to complicate it further I will do this. We can go all the way round doing this. If we do this in this manner, this is called the Mercurial wheel of being and is actually a real, not an allegorical yantra, a real diagram of the mental process that we use all the time, usually without awareness. We look out with interest, we take the interest back into centre, see how it relates to my intention and go out and have another look. And we continuously go to centre and go out and back to centre and in this process we generate immortality, that is, non-dyingness because we continuously reposit; we die when we lose the interest absolutely, we let go of the object, we let go of the jot and we let ourselves relax, back to the Infinite which posited us in the first place and this relaxation from the point of view of the existent dot is death. But that death is an entry into the eternal infinite life. All this is the action band, and we want to show a slight change and increase in complexity.

There is our prime point, and through it, from Infinity to a certain distance, we are making a snake with curly mouth, goes the power of the intent to be. Now the second letter of the alphabet is B and the letter B originally was a circle and then later on they changed it in various ways. In English we write like this, but you might not notice that that is really this diagram, taken with half, like that. Being has two aspects, the gross physical aspect and the subtle, mental aspect. So to be from the point of view of a bi- ological being, bi meaning two, one must have a gross body, represented by the periphery, and one must have a centre of initiation represented by the dot in the middle, you are beings of creative initiative, bound in a world. Now the creative initiative is free, so I am going to write F for the phallic, not penile F for the phallic, enlightened power which loves to come out and play. When it does so, it writes an R onto the F which means to differentiate, to discriminate, to pluralise, to make varieties, so that that base frr as in Friday signifies this power, from the centre positing differences from centre. It is throwing out possibilities.

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Now as the…, we will write the word down here, the phallus intelligent, playing power, differentiates itself and makes of itself a three-fold life and perpetuates it in a primitive language if you wish to express continuity you just repeat the word. Like you would say to somebody, go, go, go, go, go, go, until they were out of sight. In this case you see FRE, life and repeat E, E, E, E, E, E, E, E, E, life, life eternal. From the centre of being, wells up a fountain of eternal life. And it goes out from there and it goes to a distance ‘certain’ that is ‘hard held to avoid dissipation in infinity. And then it comes back. Now you can see, the zone immediately near the free here, is the field of free power, but because of the ‘certain’ that means ‘hard held,’ actually the CER in certain should be pronounced like K, ‘kertain, and the curtains you hang up have the same basic root, that is the curbing or curving which turns you around your centre of interest and this is called the ‘dome.’ That is like the vault of the heaven around the Sun. Now the Sun is shining and going out and is being turned back by other cosmic forces to re-feed the Solar System. In the same way that the attention of an individual goes out and then goes back to re-feed the person in so far as they have interest, no further. Now just as near the centre there, where the initiative is, the effect is immediate so that the innermost part of your being actually knows what it is doing, so, on the periphery, where another of these can be formed from outside and produced there contingency.

Where the two beings, this is another being over here with the same problem, here they interfere with each other by rubbing, by friction, and we call that the external stimulus. Now, just as near the centre there is very clear and obvious fact, the initiative has not yet had to fight much of the power around that zone, but the nearer it gets to its periphery where it encounters another being, the more inertia it encounters. So we are going to draw another circle here, like this, and this one represents your integument, your skin if you like. So we have in this part, a spinning inertia, like this, and this maintains, by inertia, the being of the body. And this is the dome that holds in the life. There is the life of the initial idea, “I will be an individual,” or as it says in Islam, God, Allah says, “I was a hidden mystery in the Infinite. I desired to manifest,” therefore the creation of this idea and the pushing through the idea to make the world of diverse beings.

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So we now have a zone, the external part of our being, very inert and very subject to interference by other beings. You all know what it is like to be interfered with by other beings don’t you? Especially when you are trying to do something you consider important which somebody else, usually your spouse thinks is not important. At the battle of the importances, ‘import’ means ‘carrying in,’ import means carrying in two different centres in-porting, important, have a different opinion of reality so when they come to the zone of contingency, they interfere with each other, and all quarrels and international wars, and the battles of life forms, the viruses, the bacteria, the animals eating each other, they are all peripheral fights; but between the centre of initiative there and the zone where the initiative is still effective, and the zone of inertia, here, there is a zone between, and that zone can look two ways. So we will have a way looking in towards the initiative, and out towards the inertia. Now it is in this zone here, where indecision, unsolved problems in the human being exist. They don’t exist there, that is the zone of reactivity of the gross material order. They don’t exist there because that is pure initiative, but they exist in the place where there is looking in and looking out without a decision to give superlative to one or the other.

Now the free spirit is domed by being in a physical vehicle, the body. If it had not got the body, it could not be an individual; if it has got the body it has got a limitation And we look towards the body externally and towards the initiating spirit internally, and between we have this wonderful zone of ambiguity, shall I be a spiritual being or shall I be a gross material being?

At five to eight tonight I had a phone call from a man that said he had a lot of friends who enjoyed themselves without conscience and he said, “I wish I had not got a conscience. Every time I do something stupid, I feel awful. All my friends when they do something stupid say ‘So what?’ I wish I had not got a conscience.” Well it is a bit late when you have developed one to wish you had not got one. The only thing to do if you have got one, is get rid of it. When you get rid of it you are called in realm of yogi, “Whose works are neither black nor white.” But you cannot get rid of it until you have understood that con-science means ‘with knowledge,’ the totality of your knowledge. The impossibility of two centres agreeing about what to do on the periphery.

Stroke me.”

OK, I stroke you. But do I stroke you in the way you want to be stroked? Have you ever had an itchy back and asked a friend to scratch it? Does he find the right place? And, if he does, doesn’t it move? Don’t you say, “Eh, a bit higher, a bit lower, a bit…” as soon as you become interested, you energise, when you energise the energy radiates its mood. There is a lovely negro song about that which I will not sing to you.

Now here we are with the real meaning of freedom. Freedom means a contradiction between pure, absolute initiative and total subjection to interference from without by other beings, and to balance those two powers is real freedom. To be able to use our initiative and at the same time be aware that other people have got some too and even allow them a bit now and then, intelligently. That is real freedom. It is not merely free, merely free is utterly careless. It is not merely dome, total doming is death; it is the supreme balance made by intelligence between my will and your will. I make allowances for your initiative; you make allowances for my initiative; the perfect balance for mutual allowances is perfect freedom. If there are not allowances, there is no freedom and if you move then, extrovert the attention to the body all you will get is physical irritation and probably a local war. The number of divorces in this country is about one in two now; in America it is about one in one. It is caused through coming to the periphery of being and one being trying to persuade another being to abandon its unique individuality and do that which the other being requires it to do, without argument. So, the winner in this battle is the one who understands that the free initiative has to make allowances for an infinity of free initiatives elsewhere, without complaining. Now if you are terribly quick in making the allowance and you know why you are making the allowance you can avoid the petty wars that are called domestic squabbles by simply seeing the end result of a process before it arrives. When if it is not worth it you don’t release the initial field stimulus. How many times have you felt a rude word coming on the tongue in response to a rude word and instead of inhibiting it you let it out, and that begets another, and that begets another; and then you have turbulence and a quarrel, only because you did not inhibit the tendency to be one up on your opponent. So if you allow the other opponent an infinite right to be unique, and you allow that freely, intelligently, then there is no quarrel, there cannot be.

Now, looking at freedom in this way, is it possible to have freedom without self control? Not possible. Self is the field of awareness, the whole field, we write that letter again, that is the letter , which means life, and there is a little hole there for life go in and out. In the idiographic base of it, it is a window, and a window is not something you look out of, it is something that lets air in and out of the building so you can breathe. It is a breathing hole, a wind-hole. Life is free. It is no good having walls to the house then shutting all the windows and doors and sitting inside and refusing to go out for a breath of fresh air, you will die. So you must have this breathing hole so the life-air can go in and out.

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Now the whole of Infinite life is represented in that letter, so we can actually do another interesting diagram, here is the square form although originally it was written like a circle representing life force with a breathing hole for going out and inside it, by self-condensing, has made a little yud or dot, or point of individuation. It, the life infinite, has made the individual. Now egotism thinks the individual has a claim on life. It has not. Life has posited the individual; it is for the individual to learn the law of life and obey it. So there we have a big Hé, life itself, and then the posing in the field of a small round that one; and then the drive of the power of the life field through the inner life field makes itself an elongated yud or dot, and that is your life drive, and then we put a circle round this triad here, again, serpent with tail in mouth. We now have three letters inside the circle and one outside. Now let us call the circle the Isle, I will write the word isle, ISLE. Actually the word isle means “Is God,” read it this way, is-el, ‘El is the name of God, It means first trine worker, the power that thinks and feels and wills simultaneously, and therefore, is always in charge of itself. It is the Isle of the Blessed, the Isle of the Blessed. Now we say in English, is-land, don’t we? The land of is- ness, land of being a being, an individual spirit by the encapsulation process, the doming. Unless we affirm this dome we are at the mercy of an infinity of possibilities invading our minds. Billions and billions of inventions, not yet invented historically are going to be invented because they are in this field of life-power and they are pressing in to the island of the Blessed, be-less. This island is less than that Infinite. So, “Bless you,” means to reduce you to the island and accept you are being less, you are being less than you would have been near the Infinite by becoming an individual, and in becoming the individual in this way you have rescued yourself from the infinity of brilliant inspirations, which, if you got them all at once, would totally immobilise you. Take the history of inventions since the invention of the wheel, the lever and fire. Those three little inventions have produced Concorde, have produced space travel, will produce space platforms. Millions and millions of inventions are in the field of intelligent power, waiting now to be discovered and every time they are discovered somebody says, “Oh , how simple! Why didn’t we think about that before?” But you can’t think about a thing before you think about it. You can only think at the moment you think of it. There are millions, billions of pounds to be made by inventions that come buzzing like this in the Field. An egotist says, “Where are they. Let me get my paws on them, let me convert them to cash.” But the Field is in charge, not the ego, and the Field lets out an invention in a given century, when it is ready and not beforehand.

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Now this is called the island and the anthropologists would call it of tonal, Island of Tone-al. Tone is voice and Al is God, the island of the Voice of God. Now, every individual, within his limit, up to his own skin surface, is a god, he is creating him by his preference for himself. Archbishop Ramsey said today, “We will have to have a new evaluation of Christianity now; we will never get those people back in church unless we say something different and up to date. But we must not lose the essence of the teaching, for many people are frightened of bishops who are alert and intelligent and want to bring it up to date. Many passive believers do not want to come up to date, so they are frightened of the bishops announcing, “Oh we let us change the form, let us change the ritual, let us change the interpretation.”

“We don’t want that, supposing that is so, we don’t want it.”

But the intelligence at the top, the better equipped bishops and Archbishops, they know, life is in charge of evolution. When the life field condenses onto the yud , that movement is called Involution, and when it gives an idea to the yud and pushes it down like that and it goes into the periphery, that is called evolution, in-turning, or in willing, out-turning. There is no evolution without prior involution.

Now every single individual being, from a virus, a microbe, to the human being, are all determined from centre or periphery at any moment, they are either initiating or inert. If initiating they are called saved, if inert they are called lost.

The tonal is the unity, the C1 in music, the tone, and outside it is the wandering power, which again has another name and this name means ‘snake-condensed appetite-god.’ It means a power that by simply condensing, refers to itself, I am the god. I don’t need to take orders from anybody in the island, I am going to move in space and I am going to strike occasionally and tempt, present that island being with a temptation, a time stimulus. I am going to continuously try from all points to upset this being. None shall attain to true individuality except under the conditions of temptation. You cannot be saved by being protected from temptation; you can only be saved by going into temptation and coming out of it with an intelligent response.

This word means ‘a snake-appetite-god.’ The appetite, no consideration of individuality, swallows this and that and the other, indiscriminately, destroys things, while the being on the island is trying to build; the sea is lapping round the island and wearing it away. The island is continuously under attack from the forces outside the island.

Now, it is only this island which is the domain of the freedom-knower. There is no dome outside, so the concept freedom has not got an application, outside. ‘Free’ has, yes, but not ‘dome’ only within the island have you got this “Free-dome.” And the dome means one must control one’s appetite and educate it to become intelligent otherwise it will destroy the very principle of individuation. Mental hospitals are full of people who, through lack of education, have failed to integrate their mental contents.

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Here is the same Cosmic Man drawn as a figure standing, himself, in the infinite space of life. He has an idea and a feeling and a drive and a going about. And the three here are in the island, and the legs going about on the earth are separate, and as we say this is the isle, this one is ex-isle. So the life exiled, outside the island, has no power within the island. The individual has power only within the circumscription of his own definition of his own being. Own means ‘owed to the Infinite Field of Life Power.

How do we feel about this? We think, we feel, we drive, but the moment the drive drops down, like this, there it is, the moment the drive leaves the heart, which is there and falls down there, we get an unbalanced figure, don’t we? The drive has carried you into the external world and you have become subject to contingency and stimuli by other beings and you have lost your centre of reference. To keep your centre of reference up there, in the heart, is to have feeling, compassion, for the other beings in the universe. If every act you did was determined by compassion for the person to whom you were doing it you would not fall. But if it becomes nothing but my way regardless of your interest, that is called the fall, where the heart is left and the physical genitality operates. Now it says, “Only by taking on his shoulders the sin, can the Messiah save the human race.” And the letter sin, shin in Hebrew is like that. And if you put a point there it is pronounced shin and if you put it there it is called sin and if you put it on that one it is this one that is being pointed, and if you put it on the intelligence that one is being pointed because this letter is nothing but, two close together there and one far off there, that is the form of the letter shin. You then write that letter here on the shoulders and that means take upon yourself this true idea. All things whatever, in total reality, are play of energy and this letter signifies fire, and the name for a man, Ish in the Hebrew means fire. Man is fire, and it says “I issue hierarchically.” That is, in an order of development of fire. By taking on yourself this idea, you save yourself. The idea the Universe is energy, symbolises fire. Heraclitus says the Universe is only fire, energy on the move, no man bathes twice in the same river, or has the same thought, consecutively with another thought, all is change. Everything is flowing.

Now, if we accept this thought, everything, without exception, in the Universe, is power, symbolized by fire. “I am a devouring, a consuming power,” says God in the Bible. Energy, all is energy. Now if you accept that you are saved, because you don’t fall into thinking that another being is merely a body of matter. If you remember that it is not a body of matter it is a body of power, a body of fire, a body of interest, a body of feelings, a body of will. How many times do people fall into the error of thinking that the other person is a body to be manipulated? More often per day than any other error, they treat the other person as an inanimate thing that can be manipulated by smiles or jeers or kind words or rude words or even by physical blows. To treat another person as a thing that can be pushed around is this fundamental error of the failure to recognise this marvellous letter shin, fire. Every person you know is fire, every person is condensed, “Ja ich weiss woher ist stamme,” says Nieztsche, “I know from where I descend, from fire. Everything that I touch sets on fire.” We cannot relate to other people as if they were things with no fire in their centre, don’t they become enraged if we try to push them about? They may bottle it but they do something with their energy’s reactivity later. This might be a road accident or a piece of burned toast but it will be something. So if we accept totally, “All is energy,” symbolised by fire, we cannot find a single being, not the tiniest little insect that does not fight back if we spray it with DDT. There is no such thing as a non-reactive being because all is energy, power, fire.

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Pyr is a little word, that is the same power in pyrex, cooking dishes, it means fire, but it also means reason, pi ratio. It means ‘a mouth affirming differences.’ Supposing we put the letter there, ק that means mouth, we put a yud there, יּ which means ‘form’ we put a resh there, ר that means differences. (That with a long tail) We have now written for ourselves this word, only we have written it this way, hebraica, and say ‘a mouth forming a difference.’ The mouth is ‘substantial zone of crucified power.’ Out of the mouth of the issues of life. You open your mouth, a word comes out, the word is a stimulus, a differentiator, aha, it differentiates the organism of the other person. A million reactions occur inside. Remember that person bottles them, it does not want you to know, “I am really furious,” and if that is a person to the unconscious, there will be an accident caused by your careless speech.

With pi, there is pi in the Greek, Π, that is the pi of pi- ratio, let us say H for hierarchical power and height and put a letter T upside down like that, like a TV aerial the height from which we drop a pebble that hits the surface of the water, the height determines the way the waves will bounce from that point. and will gradually diminish, and this is called point of impact. And if the amount of power in the situation is exactly balanced with the amount of intelligence, or pi ratio, pi ratio is the ratio of the circumference and the diameter of the circle or the radius, pure rationality is pi, and pure hierarchical power is H, and when we put the two together, in perfect balance, we have the marvellous word Ha-pi which means it is ‘happy.’ Now those of you who know anything about say wood-working tools, know that if you get a saw and you start to saw, you let the weight of the saw cut the wood. If you press on the saw too hard it will jab into the wood. It won’t saw, it will gather but it won’t saw. There is a correct amount of pressure, and when the power-pressure balances exactly the form that you want, you are ha-pi. If you don’t balance your power with your intelligence, intelligence is the P because that P, because that P is the mouth or voice or verbal expression’ if you don’t balance it, you cannot be happy. If you do balance it you cannot help being happy. Happiness is that very state of balance from the height of your supremacy over the P pole, noblesse oblige. If you think you are very clever up there, be kind to the beings down there. It is stupid to get a hammer and hit the waves or scourge them with a whip like Xerxes, it does not calm them it agitates them.

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So the perfect balance of H and P, of hierarchical power consciousness, and the verbal expression of it is a true relation between hieros, the priest, and the people. These are the people down here, and observe in this word, love. Hierarchical power, individual awareness, love. If you love the persons with whom you are inter-relating in an hierarchical manner, that is with due regard to their actual powers of assimilation, you are a true hieros, you are a true high priest. If you don’t love them, you are just deficient in the way of relation. The application of hierarchical powers requires ‘noblesse oblige,’ it requires you to the degree that you are strong, so you are to be merciful. Strength does not mean unkindness, force, it means understanding, entering in and allowing. No person of the people can assimilate more than at a given moment of their time organisation their being allows them to assimilate. So if a person down there, we go below the water down there, very deep down there, at the bottom of the ocean there are fish this shape. You have probably seen them in the documentaries, very slow moving, very dim appetites. The deeper you go down into matter, the dimmer the consciousness and the less capacity for assimilating the meaning of hierarachy, so the one that understands, or believes he understands hierarchy is under the law, noblesse oblige. As I am intelligent, so I am required to make allowances for the stupid, not to abuse them, not to misuse them, not to dupe them, not to take advantage of them but to help to enlighten them, gradually lift them up.

Near the surface of the water there, there is some atmosphere, some humidity, make you drown and the water content there is less than it is down there and here even less and less and less inertia. Let us correct this up here we will make a little Masonic one out of this now. This is from the ancient time, thousands of years ago. That is H T. We will turn it into a more modern form, T H. That is the templum the Temple, hierosolem, of the priest of peace, the Master of Peace, that is his sign, it is essentially made of three letter Ts, like that. And then you simply straighten them out and for convenience and you have the Temple of Jerusalem, the temple, the time play of the sight or vision of peace city.

When the three hammer into that centre there, to complete our diagram, let us join these up like this, and we now have, for the three, thinking, and feeling and willing, the positing of the idea, and we are back to our original diagram.

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Now this is our task as human beings. The animals do not have this problem; the human beings, mid-way between the grossest material darkness and the highest divine spirit. It is the human being and not another being, that has to get hold of this opposition and unite above and below together in his own being, and he does it by hammering thought, feeling and will onto the idea of the truth. The truth, the idea and fire. That is our word ‘ish’ again, read this way. Man is an idea being of fire.

How do you feel if you think, I am sitting here, apparently quiet, I am absolutely an inferno of unfulfilled purposes. I have the idea, I could do marvellous things that I have not yet done, and I have not done them. How do I feel if I know I have an infinite potential and I am not realising it? How do I feel? Answer, dissatisfied, suffering from anxiety neurosis. Until we can fulfil the idea with our energy we are not truly ish, we are not Man yet.

Any Yiddishe momma would say to an errant son, “Be a mensche,” that means can count, evaluate, remember you are a human being. You are ish, you are fire, you have an idea, you have energy, if the idea is a good one, energise it, push it, fabricate, push it into being, otherwise you will fret because you had an idea and did not realise it, and the unborn idea does not forgive you.

How do you like that for a terrifying thought? Every time a human being has had a good idea and felt, mmmm I could do that if I were to pull myself together, posit myself; and then has not done it. Mmmm I will do it tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, and then they suddenly see a full page ad with the idea, on the market. “My God, there is my idea,” how do you feel? It made, er ten billion , that idea, it made a nobody into a somebody. And it was your idea and you did not do it. How do you feel? How many of you have had an idea and not put it into being? Have you had one? How do you feel about it when you think about it?


Yes. Now the totality of those dreadfulnesses is the meaning of the Biblical Hell, yes? There is not a place called Hell. There is a condition of self-realisation of impotence through the non-operation, the non-actualisation of one’s own inner potential. Would you like a worse Hell?

No, there is not one

There is not one.

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That is the Hell to be afraid of the recognition of unfulfilledness potential which could have been actual if only it could have been gathered together. “His worship is perfect freedom.” The free spirit gives you the idea but you must dome it. It is no good having an idea in bed in the middle of the night and then not bothering to draw it on paper and then in the morning you say, “I had a marvellous idea last night, can’t remember it.” Have you had that experience? Have you had an experience in which you have dreamed a dream, and the dream was very interesting, in the middle of the night, “Oh I must remember to tell Mabel about my dream.” And the next day you get up, “Mabel I had a marvellous dream last night, it has just eluded me.”

How do you feel? There are many inspirations that would produce new worlds, that come in the middle of the night like that, and you do not wake up and write them down. Do you know if I get an idea in the middle of the night, if I see something in the middle of the night, I switch on the light and do a drawing of it. I would not dream of not doing that. I don’t care how much paper I cover and I have covered a few miles in my time. Papers covered with drawings and notes about ideas, they can’t escape then, not unless somebody finds them and burns them.

And this is what we have to do. Recognise freedom is not simple lack of restraint, it is not following impulses indiscriminately; it is a gathering together and appointing of a periphery to one’s being, and a definition within that peripheralised zone of one’s fundamental unique idea of one’s own being contribution to Cosmos, and then following that with all the power of your trine nature, thinking feeling, willing, posit. Three becomes four, think, feel, will, established in the body is the fourth one.

Is it possible to be unsatisfied if you can do that?

You all know the little book of Helligal, Zen in Archery. He learned that there is a technique whereby you can shoot an arrow in the dark and hit the target. His Germanic mind did not believe it, but the focussed mind can do it. The focussed mind of the intelligent being can do anything with Absolute success, but not if he forgets the idea, not if he does not emote about the idea, not if he does not drive the idea, not if he does not make the idea tangible in a physical body. That is the meaning of the Incarnation of God, never mind the historical incarnations that have been. The incarnation is meaningful to a human individual only for the individual who incarnates what we have just said, “Ish,” an individual must recognise creative fire to be his being. How do we feel about that? Do we like it? Some say it is a bit of a responsibility. I have had that said to me many times. “Oh it is too simple and too responsible.” I make my life, I design my mind, I design my feeling, I design my will, I design my body, I design everything about me and it is my responsibility. Do I like it? Hard work, who likes hard work?

Let us leave it and think about this shall we?